Written November 6, 2008
I haven’t written in about two months. I apologized to myself and now I am moving on. Let’s see what’s new with me?
My last class is much better than the first time I took it. Of course with no military training interference, I am able to get online when I need to and write my papers without interruptions. Of course, I told myself that I would be doing my work ahead of time and have every single assignment completed before it was due. Well, it seems that I will always procrastinate, unless I am taking adderall. That is honestly the only thing that works for me.
I still haven’t lost all the weight that I have gained over the past year. I can’t fit into any of my jeans, work clothes, or anything else for that matter. I wear sweats and workout clothes every day and I’m really tired of it. I went running today for about an hour with Coco. My chocolate lab demands physical exercise which has motivated me to get out of the house. I hope that I keep up my morning walks/runs so that I can shed off some weight before the holidays. I have cut out some foods in my diet and I hope to become as healthy as I was before.
Clee and I are still in Tulare, California. We are so ready to move away from this place and start our future together. We have always considered this location to be temporary so we haven’t focused on planting any roots here. We don’t go out too much, I haven’t gotten a job, and we really don’t have too many friends. I hate not working. Well, let me rephrase that…..I hate not having money, I love not working. Seriously, I have to get a job and soon. I am running out of money and fast. I have been barely paying my bills and after this month, I will be completely dependent on someone else for the first time since I was 15. I miss my nails, my hair appointments, my stylish clothes, and all my splurges on sushi and other expensive fun stuff. This may have something to do with my depression and this rut I seem to be in right now. Hopefully getting a job will improve my life, so I can say that I am happy again.